Wednesday, August 25, 2010


Does anybody actually read this? I"m wondering if i'm doing this just to keep my sanity some days. I'm very curious to know if anyone actually read it. If it weren't me, i proably wouldn't because i know i tend to go of on tangents and its like my mind vomits and spews things out and they aren't necessarily in the right order. Oh well, as long as i can record things and go back to read them, then its worth it. I'm not the most committed blogger, but hey, who's has all the time in the world to do it, cuz whoever does needs to share!

I guess what i'm getting at is.. i went back and read what i wrote about the girls and i started crying because it brought back all the guilty feelings I had when they were born. I'm was so mad that i couldn't keep then any longer, mad that they were struggling, mad cuz i wouldn't hold then, then felt guilty when i didn't want to get out of bed to go see them. I felt horribly guilty (and still kinda to) for leaving Peyton in Boise for so long... even if i was sick and needed to be at the hopsital every day. It was a hard situation, but i've learned so much through out all of this, that i wouldn't trade the girls for anything, i would do this all again if faced with the same thing... isn't that kinda the point of trials?

Anyways, there's your verbal vomit for the night.. if in fact you are reading this..

6 pieces of love:

Josh, Shauna, Allison, Brynlee said...

I read it! I LOVE blogging for journaling purposes. I am sure the majority of what I write no one cares about, but I love looking back through it like you do. I also love being able to keep up with friends and see pictures of their adorable families so thanks for blogging!

Sarah said...

I read it! And PS I only know one other person that has used Gdiapers. She said they can leak at night, but I'm not sure if she was following the instructions on the website to double-up. From other blog posts it seems that people who had leaks called them and got instructions for how to fit them properly and that solved things. I am really excited about them though!

Butler Family said...

I LOVE reading your blog. It reminds me that life as a mother is hard but is so WELL WORTH IT!!!

Erica said...

I read it :)

Cecily said...

I read it. And love it.

Tom and Patricia said...

I read it, too - but sometimes I forget, because it doesn't post on Facebook!! :o) I check every so often, and get caught up that way. But it's a great way to keep up!

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