Monday, August 29, 2011

The Diagnosis

So, we found out why I haven't been feeling good these past few months. It all started back in April/May when I had a few episodes of low blood sugar. Then it started getting worse. Remember about my eyes, when I had that bad driving episode? Well that got better, but my health didn't.

Lately, its gotten worse, and the past few weeks I've felt so awful that I hated getting out of bed or doing any kind of activity. I was drinking like crazy yet thirsty all the time. Anyways, we finally went into the Dr. and talk to him about my symptoms and they drew blood.

All the crap I've been feeling is because I have diabetes. I am a diabetic. It sucks. I hate it. I'm such a sugar-aholic. Yes, thats what I am. What I was. not anymore. apparently.

My blood sugar was so high. Almost 400, where as a normal person's is less than 100. (I tested Toby's and it was 68.. stinker).

SO I spent the day being educated on diabetes and not really learning anything other than checking my blood sugar and giving myself insulin. Yep, I give myself shots of insulin.

We talked to a specialist that my Dr. referred me too and he talked with me about how my life will be like from now on. He said I'm not Type 1 but I'm not type 2 either. I'm sort of in between. I have markers from both, but I'm not as dependent on insulin as type 1, but I'll probably never be fully able to control it without it.

I'm seeing a counselor and dietician tomorrow and hopefully they will help me figure out what to eat. The internet is full of contradictions and I'm not sure what to think. I know basics, but I seem to be spiking my blood sugar every meal. It'll be nice to know exactly whats going on with my body.

On another note, Ben is learning a whole new vocabulary. He is constantly asking me if I need to test my blood sugar. its quite funny. He  mentions all the time that he doesn't want to check HIS blood sugar, just mine. funny funny.

Life will never be the same again. Maybe its for the best. Maybe not. Probably Not. Definitely Not.

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Erica said...

I am sorry :( On the up side, you can still have sugar, just not as much. And, you'll be healthier because of the required amount of exercise and diabetic diet. Still, it sucks. Good luck and I'm here if you need anything!

The Gilberts said...

Hey Samm, so I thought I was really diabetic last november, and I was tested negative. However, now that I have gestational diabetes in this pregnancy, I am wondering how true that really is. It is a life changing thing. You will really have to watch what you eat. And to be quite honest--sugar should be cut out of your diet completely. That's the ideal way. I am doing it, and I will probably continue doing it after I have the baby because I am so high risk. It will be hard, but you will find as you get into the swing of things, sugar won't be such a temptation for you anymore. The main culprit is carbs, so I am allowed to have 30 grams of carbs in the morning and 60 grams of carbs for lunch and dinner. I think the allowance is higher for regular diabetics. You should call me, and we can chat. I know exactly what you must be feeling!

Mandy said...

:( I'm so sorry!! that's awful! :( I'm glad that they caught it early and that you can supplement your lifestyle. the one thing that stuck out for me in my health classes in collage is that physical exercise can open up alternative pathways for glucose to enter in skeletal muscle. aka physical exercise can lower your blood sugar!I hope the docters have some treatments that can help reverse this for you

Jeff and Lori said...

Bah! So lame. We will keep you in our prayers. I hope you will feel better now that you know what it is.

Butler Family said...

I am so sorry Samm. I am thinking and praying for you and I know you will be just fine. I LOVE YOU and know if you need anything I am here for you

Diane said...

I'm sorry to hear about your diagnosis. The only upside is, Now you know. We have diabetes on both sides of our family and extended family. Parents, siblings, parent's siblings. No one in the next generation, yet, though. I know you probably don't need to hear this right now, but life really is better now than it was even a few years ago for a diabetic. Thinking of you!

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