The Diagnosis

So, we found out why I haven't been feeling good these past few months. It all started back in April/May when I had a few episodes of low blood sugar. Then it started getting worse. Remember about my eyes, when I had that bad driving episode? Well that got better, but my health didn't.

Lately, its gotten worse, and the past few weeks I've felt so awful that I hated getting out of bed or doing any kind of activity. I was drinking like crazy yet thirsty all the time. Anyways, we finally went into the Dr. and talk to him about my symptoms and they drew blood.

All the crap I've been feeling is because I have diabetes. I am a diabetic. It sucks. I hate it. I'm such a sugar-aholic. Yes, thats what I am. What I was. not anymore. apparently.

My blood sugar was so high. Almost 400, where as a normal person's is less than 100. (I tested Toby's and it was 68.. stinker).

SO I spent the day being educated on diabetes and not really learning anything other than checking my blood sugar and giving myself insulin. Yep, I give myself shots of insulin.

We talked to a specialist that my Dr. referred me too and he talked with me about how my life will be like from now on. He said I'm not Type 1 but I'm not type 2 either. I'm sort of in between. I have markers from both, but I'm not as dependent on insulin as type 1, but I'll probably never be fully able to control it without it.

I'm seeing a counselor and dietician tomorrow and hopefully they will help me figure out what to eat. The internet is full of contradictions and I'm not sure what to think. I know basics, but I seem to be spiking my blood sugar every meal. It'll be nice to know exactly whats going on with my body.

On another note, Ben is learning a whole new vocabulary. He is constantly asking me if I need to test my blood sugar. its quite funny. He  mentions all the time that he doesn't want to check HIS blood sugar, just mine. funny funny.

Life will never be the same again. Maybe its for the best. Maybe not. Probably Not. Definitely Not.

Don't read this...you'll thank me later

Yes, you'll thanks me for not posting pictures with this post. Today was a bad day. As in, terrible , horrible, no good, very bad day. Wanna know why? I know you're dying to know!

Well, my morning started at about 230a wen I awoke to the sound of Ben crying in my ear. I couldn't make out what he was saying until hi walked out into the living room and I hear him puke everywhere. That certain woke me up. Its a weird sound only because he's never thrown up before. Poor boy didn't know what happened, just that his tummy hurt pretty bad. Poor baby. I walked him into the bathroom and told Toby to keep an eye on him in case he needed to throw up again, while I cleaned up the mess in the living room. Lucky me, we're out of carpet cleaner, so I do my best, then spray sanitizer on it, which did not kill the smell enough for my taste.

Something I forget to mention is that Toby has a very sensitive gag reflex. He can't go anywhere near it, or Ben because he smelled. ( I remember that he used to hide whenever I got sick when I was pregnant because he can't hear someone throw up either). Anyways, I cleaned up the floor and the boy then put him back to bed with instructions to get to a bathroom if he needed to throw up again. He did; while trying to get to OUR bathroom. In the living room again. guess who cleaned that up, too? And Ben. Again.

I then put Ben back to bed in our room, but he didn't like that. So I moved him to the couch. No ok.. so he went back to his room. No further problems arose, other then him crying wolf once. ugh.

Oh, you thought my day was over? Nope not even close.

The girls slept ina  little bit this morning so when I went to get them, they were covered in puke. I don't know which one did it or if it was both, but they were both covered in it, dried in their hair, oh and they had blow out poop diapers. great. Bath time for both babies who had to be scrubbed down and I had to pick dried chunks out of their hair. Not a great day for me.

The rest of the day I felt like I smelt puke everywhere, even after I shampooed the carpet and cleaned their bed. What a treat that after nap time, they have thrown up again. Luckily it was only on their clothes and legs and didn't require a full body cleaning.

After all the puke and poo I was feeling pretty queasy the rest of the day. Excess body fluid smells will do that to you. Toby felt so bad that I cleaned up everything that he is cleaning the rest of the house for me. If I had the choice, I would definitely pick cleaning the rest of the house.

But this work too.  By the way, did you get to the end? i told you not to read!! I just had to record this for later when I feel bad and need to know that life can't get worse.. lol

Tired Little Ladies

Since the girls are almost 2, I can't really call thim my babies anymore. We now call them little ladies. They are such little cuties.. especially when they fall asleep at the dinner table. They do things together. Can you tell?

 

Peyton

 

 Addison

 Twinners

Passed out in her green beans

Homemade Diaperbag

Yes, you read right. I made my own diaper bag. I have a diaper bag already but it broke and now its sitting outside in the rain and heat and everything. Whatever. Anyways, I've been trying to find a diaper bag online that I like that was quality and less expensive. No so easy to find. I might end up buying a new one anyways, but for now, i love this one!!

 I started with this side.. I cut out all those squares then sewed them together.

 I was going to do the other side like the reverse side, but it took too much time.. and effort.

 The two sides are the same green and brown
You can also see the top "hem" that I did to cover up the craziness and make it uniform

 The inside is all one fabric, brown with blue flowers and green stems, it all matches

Here is the backside again

 The straps were both supposed to be the blue and brown but I ran out of fabric, 

but I kinda like it this way

Oh, and this is the wipes case I covered. (inspiration from makeit-loveit.com)

I know there are flaws in it, sewing mistakes and a few rips. I wish I did the top "hemming" better, but oh well. Its really nice and I love it.