Trial, trial, and oh, gues what? MORE TRIALS!

Its pouring so hard here, we might as well be in a hurricane. Category 5. (Excuse my analogy if you've never been through a hurricane.)

Not many people knew, but when we found out about the diabetes it was because it was my first doctors appointment for my 3rd pregnancy. :)  It was a huge surprise, the diabetes that is. We had been trying to get pregnant, so it was so much fun, finally being pregnant.

However, things rarely turn out as we want them. Yesterday I miscarried. I started bleeding the previous night and I must say I wasn't really surprised. I guess it was just a gut feeling that I'd had. I later learned that Toby had had the same initial feeling. We opted to do a d&c just to get things over with, but that meant day surgery and not eating for 8 hours, which as you can imagine for a diabetic is next to impossible. SO i had to go in about 4 hours before I needed to just so they could hook me up to an IV and monitor my blood sugars that way. Not so much fun. Anyways, the surgery went well and I'm doing great physically.

Like I said before, we're really not very surprised that I miscarried. I guess I'd been prepared like I was when the girls came early, but I just didn't want to admit it. There were a few signs I was ignoring, like the fact that my hair was still falling out.. A LOT, and with the past pregnancies, it never did.

Anyways, I guess the point of this post was to let everyone know that we're doing ok. Not so much today, because I totally broke down today. Not because of the baby, really, just a combination of everything that has been going on. Its been really hard lately with my health problems and dealing with so many huge changes in our lives. I'm just waiting for the blessings to come, the sliver linings to appear, and the sun to start shining because I'm almost gone. I'm reaching the end of my rope. God carry me, because I'm not sure how much further I can go.

Whew

yeah, its been a few weeks. Its been kinda hard adjusting to my new diet and things. When I was diagnosed, my sugars were really high, and now that I'm on insulin, I'm having troubles keeping them up. Its hard for em to eat enough and keep my levels good. I end up eating a bit of sugar to get them to get up to where I want them to be, but thats still not good because I'm gonna start gaining weight. At least I'm being responsible about it.. sort of.

On to other things...

Its getting colder here.. I've already brought out my Autumn decor. I didn't post it last year, but I made A-U-T-U-M-N blocks. I'll have to put a picture up of them on here for you to see. I'm really proud of them! I a sucker for decorations that go with holidays!!

We've been thinking about moving in the past couple of days. Why, you ask? Because (long story short) the gas Co. found that CO2 was leaking into our house because the water heater wasn't venting properly. Great. And its back my the kids' rooms. Luckily we usually keep the door to that bathroom shut, which is where is was leaking in. It wasn't super bad.. yet.... but the Landlord is fixing it today. Or else he better, because my greasy hair is going to frighten anyone else off!! yuck.

More other news: Addison is walking about 98% of the time, when she isn't lazy and wants to get somewhere super fast.. she'll crawl. Peyon is walking about 2% of the time. She just hasn't found the need to get anywhere that isn't faster by crawling, but she is starting to walk a little. We're so proud of here. She also cut her 4th tooth. Now both have 4 teeth, except Addison's are top and bottom front teeth but Peyton had her two bottom front, one top front and a top canine. Kinda funny.

Ben is obsessed lately with Mario Kart Wii. He's actually doing pretty good at it. He's coming in 1st on some races. I'm so proud.

In other news: My little brother is up here for the semester, going to school. Its been super nice having him around to hang out with. Ben is in heaven and even the girls have warmed up to him.